Joseph

 Sunday our pastor preached a sermon that really hit things right on the nose for me.   

There are times in my life where my mind tends to run too fast, there are all kinds of questions swirling around in my head and I know that I can always find answers in Scripture even if they are hard answers.   

Over the past few months I have been working as a behavior tech at Merakey and I have been having to really learn a whole bunch of new terminology and how to effectively run sessions with kids on the spectrum.  My mind has been like, "Did I make a mistake?  Why am I here?  It's so tough learning all these new things!"

The truth is God opened this door and put me here and my pastor's sermon on Sunday really just helped me to understand that . God has put me at Merakey to develop me into the person that he wants me to be.   There are going to be trials that I am going to deal with I am not promised an easy walk.  In fact my pastor touched on the fact that whether we choose to follow Jesus or not we are going to have trials in life.  Honestly I would rather cling to God in the middle of mine because God's promise is that through him we are overcomers and he promises to give us peace.  

My pastor spoke on what Joseph in Genesis went through.  How he was betrayed by his brothers, sold into slavery, and how he was lied about by Potiphar's wife and because of that he ended up in prison.  God used him in prison though, gave him favor.  He had dreams from God of a coming famine and when he interpreted the dreams of two men in prison with him and both came true Pharaoh brought Joseph to him when Pharaoh had dreams about 7 cows.   Joseph told him the interpretation and Pharaoh put him in charge of the granary and gave him authority.  

Joseph ultimately although he was angry at his brothers for betraying them chose forgiveness in the end and reconciled with them and the Israelites came to Egypt to the area called Goshen.   

I have been through my own trials.  Stepping out of a comfort zone and into something that I am unfamiliar with.   I have been trying to learn the new terminology so that I can pass my coming competency assessments.  My supervisor has been helping me to learn how to effectively run sessions with kids on the spectrum.  

My desire is to develop into what God wants me to be at Merakey.  Already I have been giving everything to him.  A lot of my old behaviors including the PTSD and cussing are things that I know God is already working on taking care of so that I can effectively be a witness and so that I let God's light shine through me so these kids and my coworkers will see my faith.