Games are one of my passion. Particularly Skyrim. And I can always identify with the characters that are the underdogs, the persecuted, the ones that are looked down on by society, including Dark Elves and Snow Elves. I would spend a lot of hours just playing this game and getting immersed in the role playing and such. I was that underdog growing up so I can understand their point of view.
So much in fact that the motherboard on my old computer shorted out. And for the past 4 months I have not had a working gaming desktop.
I know that I need to exercise self control with regards to gaming though because I do tend to get carried away sometimes to the point where I shut other people out of my life because of the fact that I get focused on the fantasy world.
And fantasy worlds having been something that I've been into since I was a kid. I used to really love to write the crazy science fiction stories about aliens coming down from outer space. The aliens were called Zitovians and they were constantly coming up with ways to conquer and control humankind.
There have been times in the past where I have gotten so distracted with my fantasy worlds that I have lost track of real life as well.
There's nothing wrong with Imagination. But at the same time I know I need to keep my head on the ground and focused which is sometimes something that I have struggled with in the past.
One of my coping strategies when I was in middle school was to keep a diary and to pour out my feelings into the diary. Sometimes writing stories helps as well because you can write stories about characters that represent how you feel about things (i.e. my stories about Siren Monsters as a way of getting my emotions out about sound sensitivities.
The time will come where I will be able to afford another computer. But for right now I'm learning to cope with not having a gaming computer available. It's giving me an opportunity to redirect towards my new job and just my church and faith.
God bless you all.
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