Yesterday I had some spare time on my hands because of the fact that there was inclement weather going on. There were whiteout and blizzard conditions going on. In the middle of it I was able to delve into the Gospel of Luke and the passion story. Jesus himself went through immense pain, the pain of being mocked, the pain of being scourged. He had the chance to get out of it and prayed that Gods will be done and not his. In the end God's will was done and he gave up his life for us.
What I see in that is the story of my life. The fact that so many people misunderstand autism, misunderstand mental illnesses and conditions like OCD. I have been through the pain of rejection, disappointments, persecutions, but through it all I know that Jesus has never left nor forsaken me. In 2 Corinthians 11 Paul asked God to take the thorn in his flesh away and it could have been anything. He was going through trials and persecutions from people but in the end God's answer was not to take these things away but to remind Paul of his all sufficient grace.
I know that if we put our faith in people we are going to encounter trouble. That we are going to be disappointed. Because people are flawed and people are imperfect and broken. But if we put our faith in Jesus we can't go wrong because his promises are eternal.
I know where I have come from and I know where I am going and that's the only thing that keeps me going sometimes is just Jesus promise that if we follow him he will give us the victory. And I have endured it all but I also look at all the blessings which God has put in my life. And I look at the fact that at one time I was caught up in legalistic religion, that I was caught up in witchcraft, but God was so faithful to bring me out of all this. The breaking was hard though and God promises that discipline is tough and can be extremely painful but that discipline produces the fruit of righteousness and trials build character.
I know that God may or may not take away OCD or Tourettes although he has the power to do so. But I know that he will walk through the pain and the hurt with me and that only He can give me the victory. And that we should rejoice when we face trials and when we go through suffering as hard as that may be because were are sharing in the same suffering and trials that the Lord went through.
God bless you guys and Merry Christmas!
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